To our family and friends we hope you all had a wonderful Christmas holiday. We had a very nice holiday with family all throughout the month of December. With the Eskelson family Christmas party and a special surprise by Grandma and Grandpa Towne on Christmas Eve. Thank you to everyone who sent kind Christmas greetings, delivered yummy holiday goodies and of course the very thoughtful gifts for us and the kids. It was a most special holiday for us. Mostly because of the gifts that we have received from our Heavenly Father and his angels (on earth and from Heaven)this past year. Our little babies have been so greatly blessed. So much more than I ever could have imagined. Most of all we have been blessed with the gift of HOPE. Shortly after these babies were born we were given such little hope for Carsen and what his future would hold. That lack of hope is what was so torturous for us during that time. We will never forget that feeling of hopelessness. The only hope we had at that time was that one day Carsen would be wholly restored both body and mind. Gratefully, today we have so much more hope. For Carsen we rejoice. He will not have to wait for that glorious day to enjoy the wonderful gifts of his body and mind. He gets to enjoy those precious gifts now. We have been blessed with great HOPE for Carsen's future. As a mother I can't explain how that makes me feel for my little baby boy. It's the greatest kind of joy I could have. I have learned how important hope is in this journey of life. When it does not exist our trials can overwhelm and overrun us. I am so grateful for the HOPE that our family has been given as we have watched Carsen progress and achieve more by this young age than they once ever expected. We continue to recognize the power of miracles through faith and prayer. We are so grateful for the faith and prayers of so many. Those prayers of faith have helped us to have hope when it seemed so hard to maintain at times. We have never been in this alone and we feel eternally indebted to many for their support. I have learned so much in these past eight months but these lessons have not been easy. I thank you Father and I thank you friends for the HOPE you have given us when times have been so hard. I am trying to learn as the plaque my dear Mother-in-Law gave me that "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass..... It's about learning to dance in the rain".
I am Heidi, the proud to stay at home mom of these five wonderful and intensly headspinning little children . I am also the wife to Brandon also known as Big B. He is my rock and to the kids, he is their hero. He can create, build, shoot, tie, fix, and invent just about everything and anything they ask him to. This isn't your typical family of seven but whatis typical about a family of seven anyway?! We had our five children in five years. Braden first with Grace close behind 14 months later. The third pregnancy brought about our twins Carsen and Cierra. They are the initial reason for this blog. They would be, in part considered two of the "too many to countmiracles" we have been given thus far in our lives. They were born at 25 weeks weighing 1'8oz and 1'10oz back in April of 2008. Our twin daughter came home after living just under a hundred days in the NICU. Our son ended up coming home about a month later. He was home with us for about a week when he stopped breathing. He was sent back to the NICU for another week before finally coming home for good. What happened during those days, weeks, and months, the ups and downs, that we all endured during that time, are all a part of our, "too many to count miracles". And last but not least, the baby, Kyan. We learned about him when the twins were six months old and had only been home two and three months. He is a miracle truly blessed upon me. I did not think I could handle one more thing in my life at that time. Especially another baby! I was sure that somehow, someone had made a big mistake. To me that someone was the man upstairs. Boy, I have never been more wrong in my life! There was no such mistake! This was the best, most perfect, most compassionate gift I could have been given at that time. Don't ever second guess the man upstairs. I have learned that through the "miracles" we experienced while in the NICU and ever since!
This blog contains many of those miracles and many more that I believe we will and do experience everyday, big and small. But most of all, the miracles that are my five wonderful, beautiful children and their most lucky and grateful mother and father.